The Part When You Start Screaming

this thing never happen to me for years...

I seem to be not updating so frequently. Particularly since I have no internet in my KL house so... And I had some of the new skills I know these few months. I'm officially a Phlebotomist, using a syringe, not the easy peasy butterfly ones that nurse used to poke for blood donating. NOTE: Its very important to choose the vein you like than the one you should poke since its easier to get a hematoma on the inside of your elbow if someone were doing it badly to you. This is my warning. Hematoma can have slight a percentage to become a thrombosis. And you don't wanna stroke would you? And my arms do have scars now. Sigh.. more to add to the warzone.

My mid semester exam started on the first week of Ramadhan's month. I can't say much about my result but kinda dissapointing (but I have other THREE subject that was not with the mid semester so... sigh.. the joys of a third year student) but its an improvement as some of my exam is really hard even if its MCQ... well MCQ is the one with minesweeper. There's always minus 1 mark everytime I did wrong, so I guess, I got loads of marks taken off... Plus my mind was on PMF stuff so I'm very weary of it all.

Another thing was about fasting. Seriously, I need my Java during exam and I was so blur. Sigh.. I need to change that about myself. I miss my matric OCD of my results. I kinda out of focus very easily.

I seem to acquired another new skills; I kept cooking up Italian dishes mainly pasta and tomato sauce or alfredo or nasi goreng or some nasi tom yam. This is pretty funny from a girl who refuse to cook for anyone else at home. Naughty~~

Then I managed to travel all round the Plaza RAH and found several bazaar around it. One is right next to HKL which was heavily trafficked since it went through the TARs and the Pahang Roundabout and was very "skewed to the right" (copyright by Pak Sarip) as the people like to go to the right side of the road rather than the sellers at the left. I don't know why, it just did.

And everytime I went past the Johan Restaurant's road and Jalan Raja Alang AND the way to go to the Kg Baru LRT, I would find more bazaar that is totally bizarre as only random few people were really locals while the rest came as far as Kelantan just to sell stuff. Which is very weird.

Kelana Jaya's bazaar is even better with Popiah Basah than the HKLs stupid ones (I nearly puke remembering the time I bought Popiah Utara Kering/Basah and Popiah Leleh... both are disgusting). But I like the HKL's Roti Boom (which is just Roti Canai with butter and kaya).

Since I got some time off, it would do good in catching up with my studies and doing assignments and reading back Christine Feehan's Dark Slayer (Its really hard to read after reading some 19 of hers) and later I had some time these days to level up my facebook game avatars (yeah, its getting even ridiculous by the excessiveness of my obsession over Mafia Wars and Restaurant City) I even get some good plot for a short story I'm working. Now seeking of a good climax.

I was considering on AMAX wireless since it got some RM60 promotion for students with free modem, but it seems its coverage area doesn't cover KL despite my junior said her friend subscribe to it. I hope they do since RM60 per month is very much like my excessive maxis postpaid that I still struggling paying them off. RM200 + 50. (Yes, I haven't using them for 9 months and yes I've been paying for nothing but hell...)

And Gossip Girl season 3 is coming. My only interest was Chuck Bass, Scott and Jenny. I don't really care about the other girls since I had too much of a headache trying to understand how shallow the UES are. Seriously, if they consider adopting me, I would oblige but then, the only nearest thing that I could get to them was either through biological samples. LoLz



And FYI, Vampire Diaries is here. Today should be the second episode but I doubt it will be out in torrent for until Raya. But I'm very happy to catch the premiere only three days after it, (Malaysia don't have CW remember?) and I get a copy and I LOVE IT!

Being a third year senior (or junior in some part of the world) is pretty much exhausting as it was when I was a freshie. But the fact that the post-graduate world is taunting me with endless materialism that I was dying to be out of this hell-openwide-mouth of a university. However, my procrastination is getting much worser but its just a week after mid-semester therefore I had enough slack in my past time.

but I'm allowed to dream in this time of money less.

Guess there's some thing that I had to buy when I was out working that I shall not forget (like certain someone)

1. The most recent expensive laptop. More than 2GB RAM and supermassive gadgets
2. The huge screen doubled keyboard nokia phone like from Gossip Girl (I know, I know)
3. Decent Sony camera with SLR customs
4. Huge monitor (see movie "Jumper") for the said laptop and more gadgets for my lappie.
5. PS1, PS2, PS3 and PSP. Yeah.. Seriously.

Then the normal clothing, makeup, stocking my romance fiction library and things. I'm normal a girl but still a computer geek through and through. I shall start with the first and the rest in the rest of the year. I have bloody time in my lab even with minimal RM2k wages. Experience is the essence. Later years can switch jobs also.

And recently I had to avoid going to Dang Wangi LRT station as there's a JPD student being mugged and stabbed at the stairs near the elevator in front of the station. I happen to notice blood splattering at the site and kinda disgusted at first that there's no DBKL or crime scene people to check up the site. (Don't worry, the guy is safe now and discharged later that week, its near mid semester then too) But seriously, I had to use Kampung Baru LRT station now since its now bad enough that both of the station was a bit barren with people and there's also a risk of me being in danger too. But technically I hate the way along the sidewalk of the 'Kampung' Baru. Seriously my feet hurts everytime I walk the sidewalk with stones that are ruggard enough to kill people. Seriously.

And the sewer were very toxic since everytime you step onto one of the covered metal bars, the heat came from the sewage. I looked down and it simply made my appetite go way south. And there's also a huge plant right next to the residential area. I suppose it helps with the flood but the sight whenever I stepped over a huge metal cover and saw hundreds of plastic bottles in the toxic waste, I seriously doubt the flood would be over.

Sigh... If I had my own camera, I would have posted it here. Sigh...

Things seems to be summarized by these;

• My holiday have ended
• I'm a third year student now a.k.a. a full fledged privileged senior (fourth year isnt really a fun time to have a uni live anyway. All career is in your head and all.)
  
• The reason I'm not blogging much these days were although the fact that I have full internet connection in my home, I don't really want to put things in my blog since, its holiday, things is still the same.
• I kept bruising myself these days... and my acne is coming in full throttle. DOn't worry, it will clear up as usual.
  
• The new 2009 batch is promising...
  
• I'll start reviewing all the movies I had on my free time during my semester
  
• I'm more broke now since maxis now charging me RM250 for the months I'm not using their service. (I had to terminate this month)
  
• I'm turning to blogger since I'm not going to be active for fb for a few months
  
• my twitter account has been suspended
• True Blood Season 2 has begun
• My PMFSKB life is going straight hell... year planner, calender, monthly newsletter and program
  
• I got single room this year which I hope people in my current house don't throw my stuff away.

And the fact that my secondary account has attracted jerks since I put a Kristen Stewart face instead of mine in which its mind boggling. I know, its cheating but its more weird that KS is famous now and some ppl still want to compare me with her...

I'm just a casual viewer and usually I download songs and watch someone vlogs and its not necessary for it to be that funny or even that serious. I do feel like I want to do vlogs but its too much hassle and when I got single room for next semester, maybe I'll reconsider it. And when I got some time, I might write a short film and get my biomedic studs and pmf people to act it.

But its kinda depressing when I got emails from Youtube with dozen of people self-advertising themselves.

The thing is.. whats the point of me subscribing to people when I don't even want to see the stuff they've been updating...

Since I don't really bother with replying to the said ppl... So I put it down here.

These is some of the people that I've subscribed and the reasons.

College humor - Dude, Watch the "deleted" Twilight's love scene too... I am steph fan but hey, you can make a joke out of anything these days.

Vancouver Film School - For collections of short films that I usually enjoyed during my non-internet conditions in Plaza.

Nigahiga - I don't really get the Asian Americans jokes but I do like his Movies in Minutes series. Congrats with the 1mil subscribers thing~~

Charlieissocoollike - I was wandering in the search categories during my shift in Toh Puan and found him. He's soooo cute~~ the turn off is that he's a younger guy but his vids were mostly short and so the loading is not that hassle much. A very random guy. And he makes me a bit paedophilic but really cute.

JohnnyDurham19 - Charlie's friend and active vlogger. Cute and random. These days, both of them got some male questioning their sexuality issues that is quite laughable. Since their subscriber is mostly female, I don't really think being gay has anything to do with it.

Wallofweird - She's getting married so she's not really active much these days. Making me feel being old too. She's a phlebotomist and want to study to be a doctor. (Personally, I think its better to be a doc in US yah?)

Communitychannel - Nat is a very cool Australian who I really enjoy her vids and the excessive porno musics which is very funny. I subscribe to her because of Whatthebuck...

Whatthebuckshow - technically I hated gossips blogs but he was damn weird that I actually subscribe him at the whim. He talks to much of Miley these days that I got sick of it pretty fast.

William Sledd - Also the excessive GAP references (dude, they were damn expensive and I'd rather spend the money at B.U.M.) The only fashion vlog that I subscribe. Cute and I don't really care much about his sexuality status. -_- But these days, I ignore his vids mostly.

WashingtonDeceit - I solely view his vid for histology, pathology and histopathology references. Very easy to understand too and informative and he makes it all soo easy. Which in reality, I found out it is. He saved me during the cirrhosis and meningitis slide that I got as a lab assignment. The only youtuber that offer online lessons (I think he's really a professor)... ... ... I just wish my professors and doctors did publish them... but forbid Pak-You-Know-Who to put it online.... hahaha (He usually google his name and got me once but I was telling orientation DIY so its ok)

The rest in my subscriber list is just extensions to full length movies/tvshow that I can't wait to download it via torrent. (Ok.. gov, don't crash into my house and sue me ya?) and the ones that I sort of pity but applaud to their efforts in advertising.

And to vloggers who want me to subscribe them. Just make full use of your tags and fill them with nonsense. Thats how you get your subscriber and don't flood my gmail ya~~ unless you are really really cute that is.

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The mosquitoes bit me! Argh~~!! Ok.. I sooo don't want to have a minor in entomology... uwagh~~~

Yesterday, my internet is not working... then this evening, the electric were shut down and now the ASTRO gone haywire....

Is this a sign?



Anyway, I finally watch 30 Days of Night, which some of my friend were recomending it to me last year and I was like.. hey axxo have it, and so what I can say is...

This week, I'm confirming that I'll straight perm the head. Trully... 3rd year is my straight hair year. The current state is kind of not that wiry like but fragile+soft+dry head. I did rebonding last time and also damages my hair much. But I've grown it all out but some parts of my hair is really straight while the top was frizzy, curly, wavy and dry and very thick. (I'm encoded with my mom's hair and my aunts wants me to perm my head again for years now) Its a struggle with my housemates when I went on Hair Wars with my split ends and all the rest was pile up on the floor and it will be there even when I trash them away (the wind blows and end up on the freaking floor)

I shampoo most of the days since the humidity plus my scalp really equals to severe pruritus. So I end up shampoo whenever I felt itchy. I used the dry+frizz formula and so far it only kept my hair sort of hydrated for some periods. The pediculosis that strikes my house is also one of the cause of the pruritus problems except it won't stick to my dry head and I only get empty nits which I guess my hair is not their natural habitat.

My treatment bucket is still 80% full so I guess it would last the months of me going free hair all the time.

I think I'm using the old products since I want cheap which means a deadly combo Wars with my conditioning sets but its ok... I hope it last till my sister's wedding (yeah.. Its for her sake) People are so vain about dead cells.... nails, skins, hair... grrr... I want to be feminist but then again, I just want people to shut up....



or not...

The weather in PJ is also darned hot and I'm sweating in the middle of the night here too. Its abnormal. I rarely sweat during nighttime but the heat is unbearable....



Malaysia is a tropical country but even I who got used to 40 degrees heat was really pissed off when issues such as why I don't want to wear "Baju Kurung" on daily basis.... seriously!! Even if a long-sleeved tshirt was becoming an issue, shouldn't it be just fair to say that I have a choice in this matter?




I reformatted my PC again and the device driver for the audio and video won't fit so I had gone trial and error with most of it --means--> I can't play sounds from my PC. Serious sh~tsu but my house have 5 PC now (you could imagine the bills already) and so I don't really feel that much annoyed for not having to listen to my U2berz nags and angsts. BTW, I can't even do my vlog since I lost the cd thing for my webcam somewhere in my boxes.... sigh...

I've feeling very very lazy..... and my MTs is nagging about pmf work.... and I still have to attend all these weddings, pre-wedding preparations, massive of humungous family to come into my little abode (everyone have atleast 5 kids nowadays) and all my MTs want is some piece of paper that advertises ourselves.... .... ... ... the 3M is at the end of next month. I have lots of thing to do this month la...

My part-timing job aspirations and driving licience attempt was slashed once again. They really do owe me some big time for making my adult live again similar to my pre-adult life.

A discriminated book by my peers.

note : If you are the kind of girl who loves reading malay romance (the kind really vanilla stupid boring weak and boring and literally a failure as a romance) and attempting to reading an american romance novel for the first time because some of her friend reads it (I don't really recommend ppl to read my genre anyway (unless you like Judith McNaught, Scottish romance and vampire, I might ease you into a really good book);

Don't bother to try to attempt on reading them if you had a strong distaste of the kind of sexual relationship the characters had.

A book don't deserve to be disgrace merely because you think its wrong. Just avoid the book lah~ whats so hard about that? And give it away if you hated the kind of relationship they had, I mean, its damn obvious that it wasn't really a vanilla one. (Thats why I often read historical novels instead) And it wasn't even kinky~~ duh...

But, I managed to get caffein high and joke about marriage, sex and health promotion. Yep, sexual frustration can lead to health disorder and it is in the lecture's notes. But while I was yapping away, I just realized that the other girls who was sitting on the floor near me were eyeing as if I stink (with the nose all wrinkly and I guess they heard the sex in health promotion thing)... which is weird since... they were sitting right next to the huge trashbin. I guess... I forgot to mention that fact to the haters club (I often got them and ignore them) since I was looking down at them from where I sit. Sheesh... I don't even know their names so why bother.


Anyway, the exam did quite well. Most of the thing I've read at first glance were MCQ and some are easy but the essays were the devils. Seriously, no one called a short answer question with 20 marks each is a SHORT one. But I think I end up confusing myself rereading the prevention and controls that I listed for Dengue control... which I didn't really read at all. Well... Epidemiology is related to Entomology and Antropology than any field BTW.

But later I realized that I need to fetch my secretariat stuff in which I have to clean and get something fix, I heard that we'll be having a photoshoot. Sigh.... and I had to stand in front of the boys on a very wobbly chair with a really worn and slippery heeled shoes... which I threw them off and balance myself barefoot and manage to pose a bit weirdly but I hope mine will be good. The blazer is soooo smelly that I need to take a bath again.

I had to drag my heavy items with me and managed to get a taxi and weirdly had a conversation with a taxi driver who kept asking about hyperactivity. The other three with me were silent in which I guess it will be either shy or in their head "what the guy want?". He was saying that the hyperactive kid need to get fixed immediately after birth and I end up saying that no infants must take medication for something that might not be true and it may risk the infant's liver if s/he take anything anyway. I guess the taxi driver were really into it and tell a story about how Malay need some dose of stimulant because they were too lazy.

Well, I end up in the rush to pack my backs that i forgot to eat or drink anything... lol.... so I was in a really state of dehydration for a while. And when I was in LRT, I was stuned that the guy in front of me were puting both his wrist in the rubber hanging thing as if he was a sub or something... I was watching this rather amusedly and when I got home, my mom immediately drag me and CCes to Giant mall and had to endure my kid CC and my older sister acting like kids while mom wants us to behave as an adult.... -_- anyway I'm too damn tired to care anyway.

And my house was quarantined since my neighbour is planning a kenduri.

Oh well.. tonight my old friend need votes for LOreal Paris Studio Star Search at http://www.uth.com.my/. Be sure to vote for Lim Kim Li. I found her facebook profile while surfing through some of my school friends profile.. and found her pretty self being really really pretty despite I haven't seen her since form 4. Oh well...

Personally, I have exactly no respect for people who always complaint about everything and never bother doing something thats is economically productive to the university. As a person who utterly dislikes politics, I absolutely abhor anything that associated with the student council's blogs and the actual non-existence wars between students and the administration. Mostly, Its because they had some free time using the wi-fi (which I've never used much) supplied to spread enough rumours about things when they should be doing something that is generally benificial.

Although I am one of the faculty's student's council members, I find the act was quite amateurish and sort of power hungry even if it is the name of whatever topics you had ventured into. I'm very much had no interest in campus's politics and also pretty much ignorant with the babies who kept complaining about why they were broke when they could spend more than RM500-RM1k on a phone and why this and why that and kept badmouthing about something that’s is very worthless and kept a rather weird habit that even the eccentric me would even feel them being so weird.

Nevertheless, whenever I managed to stumbled upon stupid blog and their blogger's comments about how unsatisfied they are with the university and things....